Realizing your faults with losing weight.

oh man losing weight when you have to change your daily schedule in your head, it´s so hard!, I always thought it could happen over a night but you got to fight hard everyday to knock these things into your head.

Taking small steps and changing one thing each day, in my case is that bread and replacing it with healthy fats and protein since that is a thing i am greatly lacking.
I keep forgetting all this and i come back to my old habbits, which really hurts me and makes me feel extra ashamed of my body weight, luckily though when i start next week in fitness boxing im hoping that will put me on track since some of you might know that the moment you  start exercising you show how dont crave those unhealthy foods as much :).

update: Now i have been going for 2 days and im so soar! and my shoulders are so dead i ended up throwing up.. yea be careful people. I´m taking a break off today and going tomorrow! working it up until i´m going 5 times a week 🙂
wish me luck!


Hard Being Healthy Without money

Due to not having a job yet *curses at companies*
my Idea of being on herbalife is kinda down the drain for now, so trying to poke my parents into buying healthy things is working so far but it´s just not the same, because when i do have my issues with food, herbalife does save me a lot of emotional food issues and health issues relating to my car accident.
I´m hoping to get a part time job with university so i can start buying herbalife, and it will be very handy when it comes to bringing it to school! win win 🙂

I really recommend herbalife despite the negative comments on it, of course its not a must, a health diet will do but for those who struggle with eating or anything like that it really does help. It helps me eat healthy and regularly while i hope to loose some weight in the future. My friend is a real big inspiration since he lost 30kg+ with herbalife and working out.

🙂 until i  have the money, i´m working on myself with normal food since that´s something you gotta do as well!

Jealousy ?

Until recently I´ve realized how much of a jealous person I am , and honestly its dreadful. I can´t often be happy for someone if its something that i´m somehow interested inn, like weight loss. A friend of my boyfriends joined the Herbalife i previously talked about and has been sticking with it.(unlike me who couldn’t, due to  being unable to afford it). He has lost a lot of weight, like around 30+kgs in a few months, which i mean is great for him but for me as a jealous person which cant finish anything.. Well…
It drives me absolutely insane with jealousy .
I would think i am like this due to low self esteem, and a.d.d, i jump between projects and therefor never finishing anything. Maybe Self pitty but since i don´t get quick results like other people due 5b7a654d23c73ff7f8a6ecb545f987fbto slow thyroid issues makes my mind even with more raging with jealousy concerning other people.
My psychologists told me that I´m way too hard on myself, but what can i say?
I can´t help it.

Jealous= because low self esteem?
Anyone who agrees with this?

I think in my case I feel way too stupid to be good at anything, since in the past i have put in effort and gained nothing, so when i see somebody progress and succeed in something
I´m thinking the universe is completely against me for some reason?

Like why can I put as much effort or even more and get less out of it than somebody else?
Everybody’s different and works in different ways so one could be follow the wrong path which suits someones head way more than yours?,
Maybe due to the fact you want to be like them? since their way is obviously working for them.

Strange thing is though, one might think and already acknowledge this fact but… sometimes that doesn’t make a difference (how stubborn can one be).
It´s like a viscous circle….

low self esteem- jealousy- realizes why?- acknowledges one should fix it- does nothing about it- low self esteem continues= gets jealous like usual….

AH hard to break out of this … I´m not the best at changing my patterns so.. well
woops? I´m at least trying to attend boxing practices from today despite back issues , and hoping ill stick with it.

This isn’t going that well..

Hey guys! , It´s been a while since i wrote anything but i´m back.
so i know some were interested  in  following my herbalife journey but..that hasn’t been going that well..,  since ´m not allowed to work, i don´t really have the income to continue buying herbalife at the moment which is sad :/ , instead ive been fixing my food choices, looking at what i´m eating but wondering why i´m still gaining weight…

Why am I gaining weight though after all this? honestly i have no clue, and i´m honestly quite lost but just today  ive been trying to track everything in myfitnesspal and my plan is to start walking for 1 hour every night.  🙂  Since i´m not allowed to do anything else so far anyway.

This weight loss journey has been going on for me for  a few years so even now when i´m continuing to gain weight  despite everything, especially after my accident is kinda making me hit my complete lowest point. I´m trying to not go into extreme measures since that isn’t always the best idea.

Although when I´m allowed to start working out (whenever that´ll be) I´m going all at  it!
of course whenever I´ll be able to afford to go to practices again. 😛

Hopefully I´ll start showing some results sooner or later and i´ll be sure to update you guys on that.

over and out

You guys have any advice? or are simply interested to add me on social media?
IG: nirayabun
myfitnesspal: guddab

health and herbalife on going

So now a couple of days a go i got my herbalife shake again and been doin that since….Monday? and it´s currently a chilled Sunday.
i´ve been getting physical therapy and taking walks recently to get more calorie burn since ever little thing  counts but it seems like  because of that my hip area is a bit swollen, i´ve gained a bit of weight, although im not too sure if that´s the actual reason?

3bf4992052804cc0cab3227b4feb5234Honestly could be that I´m eating something bad and not even realizing how it´s affecting me. it´s just kinda depressing ya know? i´m jumping up and down varying in 1-3 kgs within a few days ratio which doesn’t make any sense to me. Sad thing is that i can´t do much but trying to do even better concerning my diet , since i´m not allowed to exercise a lot due to the accident. Feeling so fat lately and especially when i look more bloated and cant find clothes :Þ ,struggle ya know?
wish me luck all? hopefully ill start seeing some positive difference soon?
I´m going to continue drinking more water and tea ! 🙂

any tips ? or wanna join me on this train of health, dm me at my instagram or follow me at

lets keep fighting!

Started Herbalife

So  I think in July? I started Herbalife , and it´s been progressing rather slowly so far
but it´s understandable since getting rid of bad habits isn’t so easy , also because of the fact that i had a rather bad car crash during the 27th of may 2016  with my boyfriend , the day before my graduation. Now so far my right arm ( the wrist area and down) isn’t working , and my hip so far only allows me to walk the minimum length per day, although i´m upping my goals each day , so I can reach my ideal body even faster c:

I´ve cut most soda out and but i´m also  working on getting rid of bread and not drinking my calories and such. The part which is quite surprising is that the Herbalife shake kinda helps me with not snacking as much or eating as unhealthy as i did, it´s rather strange.

Also not sure if my muscle gain  (via the scale that measures fat , muscle, water etc)  that I go on is because 0f progress or that i´m recovering from my accident but it´s something.. 🙂

Hope to start seeing a difference soon if i actually start following all this accurately!

might add more later but bye for now!

over and out,